{"id":560,"date":"2004-05-24T14:19:41","date_gmt":"2004-05-24T21:19:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kattywilly.com\/blog\/?p=560"},"modified":"2004-05-24T14:19:41","modified_gmt":"2004-05-24T21:19:41","slug":"not-number-1","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.kattywilly.com\/blog\/?p=560","title":{"rendered":"Not Number 1"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><P><EM><A href=\"http:\/\/widownet.fortnet.org\/ubbcgi-bin\/ultimatebb.cgi?ubb=get_topic;f=84;t=002374;p=1#000000\">&#8220;There&#8217;s no one there who will stop everything if I really just need to talk. There&#8217;s no one here everyday that I can just walk up to and get a hug.&#8221;<\/A><\/EM><\/P><br \/>\n<P>I noticed an interesting post over on Widownet.&nbsp; It has to do with our sense of self and of our self worth.&nbsp; We used to be the number one person in someone&#8217;s life, and now we aren&#8217;t.&nbsp;So much of what I am was perceived through the lens of how Cindy saw me.&nbsp; I knew I was important, actually the most important to at least that one person.&nbsp; That feeling is gone.&nbsp; That part of me is missing.<\/P><br \/>\n<P>Maybe it just takes time to fill that feeling with new people that need me.&nbsp; How can that be when all I feel is my reliance on everyone else?&nbsp; I&#8217;ve gone from being the most important person, the person that it so needed, to a person who needs everyone else.<\/P><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;There&#8217;s no one there who will stop everything if I really just need to talk. There&#8217;s no one here everyday that I can just walk up to and get a hug.&#8221; I noticed an interesting post over on Widownet.&nbsp; It &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/www.kattywilly.com\/blog\/?p=560\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-560","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.kattywilly.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/560","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.kattywilly.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.kattywilly.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.kattywilly.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.kattywilly.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=560"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.kattywilly.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/560\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.kattywilly.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=560"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.kattywilly.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=560"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.kattywilly.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=560"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}