I remember the days when the kids would yell at me, “Dad! leave me
alone I can do it myself!” We, I guess it’s just I now,
have raised the girls to be in some ways strong and independent.
To have confidence that they can do things on their own. I think
that is a good attribute to have in one’s personality. But there
are times recently when I have found that it’s not physically possible
for me to work full time and “do it myself!”.
The Redhead talks
about not asking for “stuff”. I am suffering from the same
affliction. There is a sense that I should be able to take care
of myself and my family. I shouldn’t have to ask others for
help. I’m not sure I can make it myself, but I’m going to give it
my best. School has started again and we have this week covered
as far as getting to from school and me getting Lindsey to the
rink. Beyond that I’m not sure how right now how I’m going to do
it. I will ask for help and have asked for help, and
interestingly have people asking me for help. It somehow feels
like I’m healing and getting back to normal when there are people out
there having a harder time than I am. But it will be a real
challenge for me to still work enough hours to keep my job and still be
able to get the girls where they need to go.